I decided not to post yesterday because I have posted everyday since I started this. Yesterday was a very well spent day with Tyler so I didn’t want to spend time working on this and take away from my nice day with him. Although this was written already and I just had to finish it by editing the spelling and whatnot.
I believe that everyone should experience heartbreak once in their life. Whether that includes a relationship ending or a friendship ending. It’s a learning lesson in my opinion. I have experienced both. Heartbreak with Tyler and a falling out of a friendship with a lot of friends from when I moved here. I am thankful for my heartbreak. I never would have thought a year ago I would be saying that. But here I am saying it.
Last year as many people know I moved in with my best friend Kaila because my heart was broken and I had no where to go. Tyler broke up with me, and asked me to move out of where we were staying. I learned a lot over the course of 3 months being apart from Tyler and being single. I was living in a dreamland and thought that everything was sunshine and happiness. It wasn’t. I needed to learn that and face it even though I didn’t want to. My reality smacked me in the face hard.
The most important thing I learned was that I do not need anyone to complete me. I can now support myself, and be able to pay all my bills alone without anyone’s help. Yes of course I struggle sometimes but who doesn’t. I also learned my worth. I learned that I deserve the best and I will not settle for less. For the 3 months I wasn’t with Tyler I was technically single even though I was talking to guys at one point. I never officially committed to any of them because I needed to be myself without anyone else being there. If that makes sense to you, it does to me.
I would never be as confident in myself as I am today if it wasn’t for heartbreak. I found my self confidence buried deep down but it finally emerged and I felt so great about myself.
If it wasn’t for that heart break I probably never would have learned anything that I did. Or realized how amazing of a woman I truly am. I seemed to forget it when I was in a relationship but remembered when I wasn’t. However I never would forget again. I also probably never would be as close to Kaila as I am now. And Tyler and I probably wouldn’t be as good relationship wise as we are now.
Yes Tyler made mistakes and so did I. We have both learned a lot from being apart and that is why we are back together because we realized how much we love each other.
Yes this is pretty short and straight to the point. Sometimes my posts will be and I’m sorry. Some topics are simpler to type than others and this one is simple to me. Thanks for reading! Enjoy ♥
-Iliana
Welcome to the ride of a lifetime 💛 